I don’t know why I started this gain.

Now I am sitting next to a window of Gilbert building, from where I can see the Stanford campus and the Memorial Church, making any efforts to delay my progress writing the proposal of my postdoc project. After 8 year from the last post, I am kind of living my dream as a postdoc at my dream lab study my dream project: ant collective behavior. I wonder during the time I was writing my previous post, if I had figured out this could be the topic I really want to study.

I miss the time when I was at UIUC as an undergrad, a bit struggling to explore the new environment but full of hope and excitement exploring my new life. I would say now I am still full of hope, but something had changed. I don’t think it is a bad thing. I experienced a lot, understand this society better, more anger but also more connection. I found new friendships, my first love and my life partner, and I don’t want to talk about this part in this post.

I haven’t figured out what I want to write about since I am back, or when is the next post, or in English or 中文. We will see.